I currently find employment in a job I take no pleasure, waiting until I can go to graduate school next fall (Lord willing,) and one of the parts of the jobs I have is morning rounds. I make sure that the paper is there, the computers are still there, and no student is violating the ‘No Food or Drink’ policy in the computer labs. Today, as I often do, I found a student with coffee in one of the rooms. I asked them to take it outside (our policy is a $10 fine, but I really don’t like to do so.) Here is the conversation, to the best of my memory:
“Could you take that outside,” I said pointing to the coffee cup next to her keyboard.
“Well, if it gets knocked over out there, you’re cleaning it up.”
I apologized, “I’m sorry, I don’t really have a choice.”
“Yes, you do have a choice.”
I shot back defensively, “Our policy is a no drinks in the lab and a 10 dollar fine – I don’t want to get fired.”
Now, there is no secret about our drinks policy – it is quite clearly posted on the wall, and consistantly enforced. Now I’ll be the first to admit that my nature is not one of the diplomat, not that I can’t be diplmatic at all, just that it isn’t my primary trait. My reaction was a little curt, but I didn’t feel like it was a matter up for discussion.
As soon as I left the room I saw the corallary with what scripture says about the state of man. Here man, confronted with a violation of a law (and having received the grace to have the penalty go unenforced), objects to the very nature of the law and scoffs at the grace which they received. This is response is of the fallen human nature; it is my nature; it is a basic component of the behavior of man post-Adam. We/I hate laws, even if they make sense to us abstractly, as soon as they effect us personally I/we try to rationalize my/our way out of them. No matter how many preachers argue that man simply has to do good (They’ll never argue that God is gracious, but like Erasmus they will think that our actions have some effect,) I fear that deep within that all our “good” is rooted in our fallen selfishness.
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? – Jeremiah 17:9
I pray that I would be transformed, as Paul writes to the church in Ephesus:
But that is not the way you learned Christ!– assuming that you have heard about him and were taught in him, as the truth is in Jesus, to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness. – Ephesians 4:20-24